dont flatter yourself sweetheart
they’re not all about you
there was like
5 or 6 that came before
that do what you do
and probably better
so don’t get it twisted
i’m a sum of ALL my parts
the empty bottles, chain smokes
and of course
those broken hearts
now you’re just a face in my rogues gallery
spray painted on crumbling walls
yea, you stole my heart one summer
but every summer’s got a fall.
November 26, 2009, 2:05am
for a brief second
i contemplated the notion of living forever
without you
of course
and in the course of that
momentary lapse in judgment
i decided
i wasn’t really feelin’ it
i could have a million sunsets
but not a single rise
and i could fake a million smiles
every one filled with lies
and those eyes, so many times i’ve
likened to the stars
i could paint a million times
and never heal the scars
the bars would all close
i’d be the only one left
praying to god there’s a god
and he’d give you more breath
so you could find me in the empty world
but would you even look?
the best thing you probably ever did
was leave this, half way crook
11.17.09
November 17, 2009, 3:09am
i want to kiss the mouth that bit me
i’ll sleep until i’m fifty
and then i’ll drink & drink & drink
& drink & drink & drink again
this pen writes tragedies not sins
and in the end i never win
but i’ll put my heart out on my sleeve
and at some point start the show
i’ll crack that smile you fell for
that night you fell on my floor
but i picked you up, we started the dance
i told them then, you’re my last chance
and i meant that shit.
11.12.09
November 12, 2009, 1:57pm
7:22 am
cant sleep
out of touch
out of hope
out of everything
pushed, a little too much
the birds are mocking me
wonder if she is…
wonder if she thinks…
wonder if it’s a fleeting thought
random thoughts
none of this means anything
but every line
means everything
to someone
so many nights
in this bed
can’t stay here alone
have to get out
but what if she comes back
while I’m gone
7:24 am
nothing has changed
none of this helps
slowly losing everything
while at the same time
getting it all
for the first time
just give up
when I know it’s a lost cause
because it might not be
what if I give up
and she comes back
while i’m gone.
11.11.09
November 11, 2009, 3:39pm
i watched my life fall from the trees like leaves
it was a rainy friday when she decided to leave
packed up her past
and set fire to the future
i gave it my all
but she still feels like i used her
she said
“maybe one day we can still be friends”
but we both know well
that this is where this ends
so lets not fake smiles
or pretend to make plans
‘cause everything we had, baby
it’s out of our hands
i’ll kiss you on this rooftop
and then we’ll say goodbye
with the city as the backdrop
and a tear in my eye
and when i said i loved you
i never needed to pretend it
so i wrote you this letter
knowing i’ll never send it
11.10.09
November 10, 2009, 12:37am
it was never intended
doll
but i think there might be only you
it seems my tongue only manages to speak your name
and if you cut out this brash caustic tongue
my hand would still scribble out your story
and if you took the time to break every bone in it
my mind would still wander back to you darling
and if you made neat little incisions
and took my mind from me
well, sadly
my heart would still beat for you
and if you slit my throat
and watched me slowly die at your feet
i would love you from heaven
or hell
ya know
whatever.
11.9.2009
November 08, 2009, 11:53pm
i was never one for bullshit poems
about flowers, and birds, and trees
we all know there is beauty in the rain
but we often forget
the beauty in love
unrequited
losthero
11.8.2009
November 08, 2009, 11:50pm
